First Year of Medical School is Over

and it has been for about a month now. To be honest, I’ve been relaxing without any guilt of not studying, not worrying about extracurriculars, boosting my application, or even getting ready for next year like I was constantly worried about last summer when I was prepping to enter first year. It’s a good feeling. I’ve had time to reflect and reevaluate myself and recognize all the changes that have occurred. Two weeks ago, I helped with some recruiting events for the medical school where some of my class travelled Oklahoma and taught high schoolers about some of the things you get to learn in medical school. Over and over, my classmates talked about how much we had learned in our first year. Listening to my classmates explain things in such a way that high schoolers understood, gave me a lot of pride in watching the fruits of our labors these last nine months come to life. We have successfully integrated anatomy, foundational biological sciences, and now the physiology of the systems we are going through sequentially; we are able to articulate these concepts into something high schoolers can understand. I’ve heard it said several times now that medicine involves a lot of teaching and at first I dreaded that thought. Rarely am I able to explain things in a fluid way such that my audience understands my thought process and the little tricks in my mind that help me learn. However, once I was put in front of these students just barely encroaching into the path that is Premed, I felt like for the first time I was...

Catching up and Slowing Down

The blogging was slow throughout my neuroanatomy block. It was easily the roughest time since first semester when my class took our foundational science courses along with anatomy. Now the year is winding down. We are in our psychiatry block, or as we like to call it- “Psych-cation”. This is my last full week as a first year medical student. I had high expectations for this year. Nothing went as expected, but that’s not to say it wasn’t one of the greatest things I have ever been a part of. It continues to be my desire to wake up and learn and do medicine. I also continue to struggle each and every day to work my hardest, dig deep, and put my best forward. Some days are easier than others. I struggle to this day with the discipline to study for a full evening with no distractions. Time management- and the guilt that goes along with making tough choices- will always be tough for me. Whenever I choose to run and meal prep, I feel guilty for not studying. If given the the chance to watch my niece for an evening or be with my family, it is always my first inclination to pick them, and then spend my time with them rushing through it or worse, resenting them for pulling me away from studying. Yet, the same is true on the rare occasion I decide to continue studying- I start to get down on myself for being the studious, uncaring robot I never wanted to be and cursing my choice of medicine for making me betray my family....

Motivation

I don’t have anything important to say. No advice or devastating or devastatingly exciting news. Only this. If I had a nickel for every time I needed a medical school pep talk and a deep sigh with my mom, my classmates, my doctor mentor or anyone that will listen- I could fly my piggy bank and I to Hawaii. This medical school thing is hard, but It. Is. Flying. By. And summer is on the...

Not for a Lack of Trying and Summer Plans

There are so many issues I want to talk about. Things I’m passionate about. In medicine and in life. Vaccines, mental illness and mood disorders, nutrition and exercise, pregnancy and childbirth, medical school admissions, preventative medicine, geriatrics, malpractice, thoughts on caring physicians, managing chronic illness, and of course this era of mistrusting our physicians and reliance on the internet. Big things are coming and happening and the future of medicine. I simply do not have the time to research and delve into these big issues and write the well-written pieces I know I can write while being true to my studies. The hard truth is, being the best physician I can in the future be means I need to give my all to the cardiovascular system right now. It means I can’t dive into those side issues I care so much about just yet because I need to know paroxysmal nocturnal dyspnea, bread and butter pericarditis, and Kerley B lines. I haven’t even had the spare thought-processing energy to figure out exactly where I stand on so many of these things. I sift through these thoughts in spare moments- spending time on my runs and in the shower deep in thought. When I’m done, I have a lot of little half-ideas and nothing really hashed out. Still, I write all my ideas in a note on my iPhone and save them for later. “Summer,” I promise myself. I’ll get down and dirty with these ideas this summer. It’s coming. Also in the summer, a myriad of opportunities have come about since being in medical school- and I’ve been really...

Things to Do the Summer Before Medical School : Updated

You may remember this post. With 6 weeks left before medical school, I thought I would post an updated list posting my progress. Just under halfway there, and I’ve already started working several others. 1///Sleep until 2 PM. 2~GO TO CHICAGO WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND! 3-Make the perfect tiramisu. 4 Run a lot. 5) Take a nap an hour after you wake up. #6 Go on a random road trip. 7> Journal. 8* Do a bunch of Pinterest projects. 9} Take a bubble bath. 10: Stay up until 4 in the morning. 11///Make a gourmet meal for mom and dad. 12~Have fun with your nieces. 13-Do nothing. 14 Go on a long bike ride. 15) Read a magazine outside. #16 Watch movies you haven’t seen yet. 17> Sunbathe on a Monday afternoon. 18* Take the girls to Bigsplash. 19} Go shopping with mom 20: Try a new food. 21///Take a 30 minute shower. 22~Have a spa day. 23-Lay tile with Dad. 24 Organize stuff. 25) Take pictures #26 Jump in a neighborhood pool. 27> Watch Netflix until your eyes hurt. 28* Go hiking. 29} Find a new hobby. 30: Focus on others. 31///Try a juice cleanse just because. 32~Get a tan. 33-Make over your study room. 34 Have...