Aunthood

The night before I last I couldn’t sleep because I was so excited for two reasons. 1)I’m still in the old college town waiting for graduation but I didn’t have any finals the next day so I got to sleep in. I love sleeping in.☺️ 2) After I woke up, I got to go pull my eight year old niece out of school an hour early to go on a date with me. They don’t know how excited I get just to see them. They don’t know how cool I think they are. They don’t know that I really do still think of them like they’re 18 months old toddling around. Them running away from me tickling them but still within reach that I could wrap my arm around their pooched bellies and pull their whole body back with just one hand. They don’t know that I think about them all the time. That I hope with all my being that I can help them along their way, and be just what they need from their aunt. They don’t know how much I love just sitting with them. Especially if they’re piled all around me. The other day at Ross I probably creeped a little girl out. I had one of those slow mo moments. I walked down an aisle. At the end of the aisle in the main path, I watched a man pick up this little girl. She was probably 3. I stared. It was just the way he picked her up was so smooth and familiar. And her response. She wasn’t looking at her dad. She...

How I know I’ll make it

Yesterday I was faced with every senior’s dream come true… A pass/fail (hard) class with a final I can get a zero on and still pass. I can literally walk away. Unscathed. Scot free. I rejoiced. I bragged to several people. I mentally told myself that I do not have to study at all for that final, giving me a completely free evening. I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that I had perhaps already taken my last Malmberg test. I considered not even going to take the final. I entertained the idea of not studying. Both are opportunities I have only dreamt of having in my four years here. This does not happen in the OBU science department. Even if your grade is good enough, you dare not skip a final because you will undoubtedly have that same professor again next year and you do not want them to have a bad view of you. I’m telling you this so you realize how big of a deal this is. So, here I was faced with this exact scenario. Pretty quickly, I decided I would go take the final and just not study. I sat idle for about 2 minutes. Then I picked up my book, got out my notes, and studied- hard- for about 6 hours. I know. I was surprised as well. I studied it while I ate snacks, I studied while I watched TV. Each time I got up to pee or get a drink, I picked it right back up without dreading an evening of studying. I did it because I wanted to. Suddenly, when...

Medical school budgeting

Med school is such a unique little niche of life that I don’t often find the answers I’m looking for when I google a specific question to see how other people do it. Med students aren’t necessarily known for writing, sharing tipsy and being involved in social media publicly but I think we should be. I soaked up every bit of info I could find about applying, schools, pre reqs, etc because it’s always helpful to know other people are going through the same things. Still, I usually can’t find anything on what I need aside from some occasional articles on the AAMC, which are so broad and vague that it’s not always helpful. Anyway, now that I’m in, I guess I’m seeking advice and guidance on how to budget for this endeavor. In addition, I guess I’m offering my personal budget outline (which I’m sure will evolve) in case anyone else is wondering how other people are managing the loans. Why I personally need a budget: 1) I’m a planner 2) I love organization 3) I love lists 🙂 4) I will receive a lump sum at the beginning of the semester which means it needs to last ALL semester. 5) Number 4 above scares me. If I overshoot or undershoot how much I need it’s bad. 6) Oh my gosh what will I do over the summers?! Expenses I am responsible for: 1) My car payment ~$300/month 2) My car insurance ~$800/6 months 3) Tuition ~$21,000/year 4) Books, supplies, education costs ~$8000/year 5) Food (living with my parents, I will probably only be responsible for lunch most...

My Second Medical School Interview

I woke up this morning and felt like writing, so I’m going to get this doozy out of the way. I’ve been meaning to do it for a while- since I wrote this post about my first interview back at the beginning of April. I’m struggling a little bit with how to write this, because I want to be honest. For me, this wasn’t as positive of an interview. I feel like I said the right things, and I didn’t colossally screw up. It was just not a great experience for me. That’s an opinion. It’s how I personally feel about what happened. It is a really great school. It just isn’t the school. My second and final interview was at OU.   Source Again, I went to bed early the night before. Also like the first time I woke up ready to get it over with. I distinctly remember getting to the medical park- which includes seven post graduate healthcare profession schools, a few hospitals, many research institutes, student unions, etc- and not having a clue where to go. I wandered aimlessly, thinking showing up 15 minutes before required was plenty of time. Two minutes later, when I found where I was supposed to be, I also found I was the underachiever of the bunch. I was one of the last ones to get my name tag and my packet. The panic that was assuaged when I got to my first interview and discovered I was one and the same with my fellow interviewees, was exacerbated when I got to this interview  and discovered I was not one of these people....

Introduction to THE STUDY ROOM

I’m trying to think of a clever name for the study room that will become my office during medical school but nothing has hit me yet. Here it is! The official before pictures. You’ll see it evolve more and more starting when I get back to Tulsa after graduation (10 days 21 hours and 39 minutes from now), but who’s counting? Right now the room serves as a guest bedroom, game room, craft room, and storage closet. First order of business will be to get rid of the junk (including the pac man machine) and condense the closet. Next, we will restore, build, or buy furniture and put my desk in and make it functional as an office. It will still serve as a guest bedroom when my girls come to visit! So the bed stays. Lastly will be setting the mood and prettying it up to be an inspiring, productive space for use throughout medical school!   I have big plans for this room. I’m going with a soft color palate of teal and beige with pops of salmon. I’m looking for a lot of natural textiles like raw wood, burlap, sea glass and plant-y things. The bedspread, I want neutral and vintage. Lamps, lights, and chair can be sort of industrial. The art I want to be animal, plant or anatomy/medical inspired. I also want to incorporate a comfortable reading area with twinkle lights somehow. I can’t wait to see how it turns out and update you guys on the process. *A lot of these images (especially paint colors) I got from Young House Love. The sawhorse...